Living life with you

Jess folded the messy blanket throwing it over the back of the couch. Who knew having a significant other coming over would be so stressful. This would be the first time that Mia would be at Jess's house, not just to pick her up. She planned out the night to be as perfect as humanly possible starting with them making dinner together. 


Or at least Jess makes dinner and Mia sits at the table near-by and makes conversation. After they finish the meal they would watch a couple movies ending with Mia going home. Both Mia and jess had the next day off if the movies got a little long. Jess pulled out some square pillows from the closet to put on the couch. 

There was a ring at the door. Finally, Jess took a deep breath calming her nerves before opening the door. There stood Mia her long dark hair was pulled into a loose braid going over her shoulder. Even in a sweater she was the most beautiful thing Jess had ever seen. 

"Can I come in or are you just going to keep looking at me?" Mia teased as she stepped towards the door. 

"Right," Jess moved out of the way "sorry just hoping this night goes as well as I planned." 

"You worry to much." Mia turned on her heels, so she was facing Jess. Jess closed the door and walked towards the kitchen going past Mia. 

"I thought we could make dinner together if that's ok with you." Jess said from the kitchen. 

"Sounds great." Mia walked in not to long after. It was something simple, pasta with a white sauce. Both just needed to boil; Jess was not great a cooking. Mia didn't mind the low skill meal, only that it was something to do with Jess. After dinner they washed the dishes, better to be done now and not the next day. 

They then moved the party over to the couch. Mia sat on the left side of the couch and Jess settled on the right side. It was not a large couch, small enough that their feet were touching. This was only four months into the relationship though. It looked like it was going to rain all day. 

Now it finally started to happen. It didn't look to bad until the after the movie, then it started coming down hard with distant thunder. Jess was going to put on another movie when she realized the Mia was shaking a little. 

"Cold?" 

"A little." Mia said her voice shaking slightly as she did. 

"Do you want some hot chocolate?" Jess asked standing up. 

"Sure." Mia said quietly. 

"Are you ok?" Jess said a few steps from the couch. 

"Yeah, I just have a thing with loud sounds. Like fireworks or-" A thunderclap sounded close. It was about as loud as a car. Mia jumped with the sound. Jess pulled the blanket off of the back of the couch wrapping it around Mia tucking it under her so that it was tight. 

"I will be back with a cup of hot chocolate." Jess walked into the next room turning on the kettle. It would be a couple minutes before the water could boil. During this time Jess pulled out two mugs, a green and a red one. She also pulled out a couple packet of flavored hot chocolate. 

"Caramel or regular?" Jess yelled to the other room. 

"Caramel please." Mia answered. The sound of thunder got closer. Jess looked from the kitchen to the living room, she could feel the anxiety from the other room. Mia was shaking a little more now, she looked so curled up that she was fazing through the side of the couch. The water was ready, jess poured the water into the cups with the mixes already in it. 

She carefully took them back to the living room setting hers down on the side table. She then walked around the front of the couch with the other cup. She gave the cup to Mia who had a small bit of trouble getting out of the blanket. Jess went to sit back down on the other side of the couch putting on another movie. 

It was able to drown out most of the thunder from the outside. They were able to finished their drinks halfway through the movie. This was when the power went out. This made Mia give a little squeak. Jess pushed off of her side of the couch leaning on Mia instead. 

"Everything is going to be fine." Jess whispered. The house was eerily quiet now they stayed in this half cuddle before Jess asked, "Should we go find a flashlight?" Mia just nodded and Jess stood up. Mia shifted the blanket to her shoulders standing up. 

They held hands as they walked through the house trying to find a flashlight. Something they finally found in the desk near the front door. It was a small three dollar flashlight that thankfully worked. 

Every sound of thunder from outside Mia squeezed Jess's hand. They finally made their way back to the couch. A flash of lightning struck in the street near enough to throw a bunch of small rocks at the window of the living room. 

They didn't shatter it but there would be some small cracks that would have to be fixed. This caused Mia to practically tackle Jess onto the couch. Jess dropped the flashlight, thankfully it didn't go under the couch since that was the only place she didn't clean. 

That was one of the smaller things that she should be worried about. Right now she was kind of panicking that Mia was on top of her on the couch. It was really uncomfortable since Mia's knee was currently sticking into Jess's stomach. 

"Hey Mia, Can I move you a little so that we can be comfortable?" All Mia could do was nod with a slight whimper. Jess shifted Mia's knees to either side of her hips pulling her head over one shoulder. She also threw the blanket so that it would cover the both of them. 

"Better?" Jess asked as Mia cuddled closer into her neck. There was only a nod against her neck. Jess brought her hand up and started brushing her fingers through Mia's hair. "Good." That storm continued for several more hours. Every time there was a thunderclap Mia held Jess closer. Note, get some noise canceling headphones if this ever happened again. 

"Is this normal?" Jess asked trying to fill the empty noise. 

She could hear Mia take a breath, "It started when I was at a fire work show and on went off into the crowd. I wasn't hit but it scared me." Jess hugged her closer. "Every loud unexpected sound does the same thing." Even with the thunder going off outside Mia did eventually calmed down.

 The shaking stopped and her breathing slowed. It was the most peaceful the two had been together. Jess was happy to have Mia so close, they hadn't been seeing each other for a long time. Most of the other date it was doing something. They had done some painting, a nice dinner out of course, and some indoor ziplining. 

It was great but Jess had always loved physical touch a lot more then just doing things. This just meant a lot more to her then any of those things. As Jess was lost in thought Mia had fallen asleep. Jess realized this when she came back to reality. 

She looked at her watch and it was very early hours of the morning. Jess contemplated if she was going to stay up and just stay in this moment; or go to sleep herself. As she thought this she started drifting off herself. This was a good sign in a hopeful relationship.

Mia woke up slowly, she looked forward seeing Jess's kitchen. Okay, good, she could remember what happened last. Her heart rate started to climb when she started waking up her limbs. They were warm, her right side was pressed between the back of the couch and what she was laying on. 

She looked down to see that she was laying on Jess. Now she was going into a full-blown panic. It got a little worse when she remembered how they got like this. The amazing feeling that she had when she first woke up was washed away now. She started slowly moving her arms and legs to get off of Jess even if she didn't want to. 

This was happening to quick there was no way that this was okay. She hoped that coming over would lead to something like this, but this felt like it was crossing a line. She looked through the memories that caused this. The day before she was getting ready to come over she saw the weather forecast. 

She knew how she was going to react if there was a thunderstorm and now it was all in a mess. She tried not to let out a whine, it was going so well. She didn't mean for this to happen; she was just scared. She was halfway done getting up before Jess opened her eyes. Mia stopped just looking into them. She wished she could stay there forever. 

Jess broke the moment "Good morning beautiful." Mia went into a full panic finally not answering but quickly getting off the couch. That was the first time that they had used any form of pet name. Mia fell off the couch and onto the floor, Jess sat up. "What's wrong?" Mia stood up hyperventilating. 

"I just, We, You." She put her hands in her hair trying to calm herself. She started walking in small circles telling herself just to breath deeper. This panicking was not going to help the situation. Jess threw the blanket off, standing up and walking over to Mia. She gently got Mia's hands out of her tangled hair pulling them down to her sides then pulling Mia into a hug. 

The slight compression of her chest helped along with Jess's voice. "It's okay, just take a few deep breaths." Mia started actually breathing, there was something grounding that it was Jess telling her. "What's wrong?" Jess asked again quietly. 

"It's just been not much time and we are already doing something like this." She gestured to the couch "And then the thunderstorm and just," She let out a sigh. "I'm sorry I pushed you to this." She tried to hid her face by putting her forehead against Jess's shoulder. This was not how she hoped things would end. She would wake up go over and sit in the kitchen. 

Then Jess would join her, and they would both quietly say that they were done. Or at least Jess would stop inviting her to things and stop accepting invites. The best Mia could hope for was a slow fade. The worst she was expecting was to overstep and Jess being uncomfortable and it ending in a big disaster. With this hug at least that didn't happen. 

"You didn't push anything." Jess said very gently. To Mia's serprise she put her hand on Mia's head and started combing out all the tangles that she created. "I was hoping for something like this and didn't know how to tell you." 

"Really?" Mia said pulling back to look at Jess. "Really, I didn't want to push your boundaries if you weren't ready. Are you ok with this?" Jess said a little bit of worry in her eyes. 

"Of course." Mia said coming to rest her head on Jess's shoulder again. She was so happy that maybe this wouldn't be the end. "Do you want some coffee?" Jess asked with her hand still in Mia's hair, a little more woken up and confidence in her voice. 

"What about hot chocolate?" Mia asked, taking a step back. 

Jess smiled that lit up the room more then the sun, "Sure." She led Mia to the kitchen sitting her at the table. 

"Did you have a good sleep?" Mia asked as Jess reached for a couple of mugs. 

"It was one of the best sleeps of my life, you?" Mia started to feel a little silly to think that this was going to end that soon. 

"Better then I could ever imagine." As both of them knew it. It was only just the beginning to something wonderful.