Tasteless Year 1994.

Tasteless year 1994.

It was huge change in life, a big shift in living, lifestyle enforcement eventually, had hit on hard by then.

A common Asian: Indian sub- continental philosophy of girl has to grow up into young woman, the philosophical push to the reality match there rift caused began to show up rather a large, significantly, way larger than seemingly, known to be.

Few lines of a Bangjadeshi song; it's translation like:

" I brought a palm-leaf made flute from the funfair, the flute does not sound the music anymore like before!

My mood doesn't feel the same entertainment as it used to!

And so is it that the childhood is left way far behind? "

It was not the case!

There was no funfair to attend for entertainment, here in Aston, Birmingham, UK, and it was for the taboo!

There were too many unnecessary non-sense. This one Bangjadeshi group circle kept self divided ÷ themselves by false into, a minus - (takeaway), from the the rest of the groups circles, and among them they caused rift and maintained further many cracks within, and keeping under the Taboo of rotten threads of a ripped net. Complicated isn't it? Yes, too complicated!!

The complication was created, it was not new. The complications of complications multiplied, continued, circled within, making knots, and more entanglements were twists and knots were added, twisted, caused and continued.

It was like the old church - communities kind of fights- hates- faulting - looking out for sins to blame of sins and wrongs are embedded into the circle as a statem. I thought of. Why I gave a church - community example?

Did I avoid Asian the Muslims and Bangjadeshi examples?

I have not avoided Muslims - Bangjadeshi examples. Of course I was naive. I was only aware of Asian: Indian some examples from books, and through Bollywood media sources. About Pakistani we knew it was worldwide they were renowned for political open disgrace, though I did not know much directly in communities' matters till later on I had direct experience (as I wrote in other stories). What I knew then were Indian Hindu communities' linking. Not Muslims, and not Bangjadeshi's for there were not much, if any, media sources available of Bangjadeshi.

Please look back and take note it was the 1 step into grown up life style, forced into. I was naive, just a grown up child/ young adult. An adult , yes.

The family, as usual as most scenario, a certain level of as such as Community respect level, do love to keep certain children naive, for their fond of the purity in look and talk of the child, maintained their polished up image of their ideal high standard.

The entire surrounded, connected community and relatives all had love and getting joy of the innocence and satisfaction to their ugly side left in darkness.

(Seemingly, it was their, a mere scape to cover up, of the filthy, dark, disgusting hunger!)

Was it not they were in conflict internally within their inner-self?

Deeds versus souls callings?

Facts versus ideally?

Of course there are other reasons also and many ugly facets in the the community, the people, circle and relative rather keep the veil on, act with polished looking, and have joy in pureness and innocence.

It is entertaining, happiness and vail of denial, best reasonable excuse to keep covering up, curtain on, for even they do not like to face their own ugly- ness, the mess.

Instead of looking in mirrors, (fact) the preferences is to look at innocent (ideally)!

The people, almost all were great in drama playing as I after all decades later look back, with facts and figures in from of my eyes. For the drama, and acting well they certainly deserve a pat on the shoulder, Weldon!!

(The magnificent community !!!)


Anyway! Back to Birmingham year 1994, It is not, matter of Fun- fair. There were plenty of funfairs in Birmingham, in other places.

It was taboo! The talks! Their sickening mentality!

On the one hand, the hate was English, Jamaican.

The word "modern", hate, it was their term was for even fashionable Asian dressing, on the other hand. Kept them busy, both hands -ful!!

The title was suggested: Tasteless year (untitled) and clicked to me, 'oh the year 1994'!!!

Some of the filthy minded, taboo screamers are the worse sinners, and criminals, caused stress and pain to many and they few still are alive, doing the same, 3 decades on.

Author Fatema Miah (Raby).